why does it work that way, anyway?

i’m seriously itching to break in a SNI…to pick up all that’s floating in my head, lay it out, put it together with words and spaces and bits of mood…

but i’m in the middle of edits for my first novel and with a real, actual deadline, writing whatever i want, whenever i want, just doesn’t fly anymore.

not that i’m complaining. i could never, ever complain that i actually get to edit for someone other than the one reader who lives solely in my head. (that reader is pretty fickle, too. especially come fall when all the good shows are back on air. i guess it’s not all bad that half of what i used to watch is now over, and i haven’t picked up any new ones to make up for them…) i’m so incredibly fortunate that i get to do what i love…and if I gain just a little bit more discipline, i’ll learn to write and edit while watching new episodes all at the same time.

though i already do this with movies, but only ones i’ve seen before…baby steps in this business, baby steps…

anyway. i did manage to bang out a pretty thorough outline for my SNI in between edit rounds. and i’m still learning how to swing back and forth between two sets of characters, two different settings, and two completely different MC voices and not feel like my head’s going to blow. it’s really not that much different than the drunk voice that comes out with good friends and the responsible voice with your kids’ teachers.

speaking of kids and teachers…i think i got more done this last week than i did in all of august. i almost blubbered like a baby at seeing back to school ads. is it bad that i didn’t even feel that guilty?